dear superdog,
we bove have much to learn.
you see what ist done to your culture. thats realy a pitty.
and i see what gift the spirits gave me to help others.
how get togehter?
Don't pity me. I'm a very happy person with a very happy family. The intent behind my words is nothing more than injecting some of the few things I've learned from life into the conversation. I realize that I'm in no control over anybody else other than myself. If what I say makes sense and you can use it then that's good...if not...it wasn't meant to be. I find happiness regardless....and since you don't know what tribe I come from, you also must understand that you really don't know what's "been done" to my culture. I've just been blessed enough to get around a little in life and people have trusted me enough to tell me lots of things in every community I've come in contact with, but I would never claim to speak for them.
The issue people have here is that you're using Devalon Small Legs and the name of the Blackfoot Nation to legitimize yourself as a teacher, when in reality.....you're very much a beginner. I can't say it any more plainly and you would have to have some trust in me to truly believe that, but I'm only words on a screen to you and that's ok. My hope is that enough knowledgeable people will cross your path and repeat the same sentiment and rather than seeing it as an attack worthy of defense, you'd see it as knowledge coming your way.
I'm not saying to not try and find your path in life through whatever way fits you. I'm saying stop selling it on the internet. Once you put the price tag on it, then it becomes commercial. It's not whether you're making a profit or just covering your expenses...once you get people to pay for it...they take on the idea that they've bought it...and it's theirs. When you take that and put labels such as "having permission from a Blackfoot medicine man", "Blackfoot style", etc etc then people think they're buying Blackfoot culture and spirituality...when they think they own it, they go and sell it to others, regardless if what they've learned is true or not. If you're a true admirer of Devalon, visit his community. Get to know his family, friends and others and see what they do there. I'm sure you'll find things much different than what you have going on at your home. Spiritual leaders do work, have jobs, pay expenses honestly and ALSO take the time to help others when asked. They don't do it for the promise of a gift and they balance their lives between helping others and also taking care of their home. You've tipped the balance and made helping others your full time job. Help is something that is offered without the promise of anything in return. When you pay someone for "help" you're in reality "hiring" someone and that's NOT the same thing.
What's more troubling is that you've taken the dangerous practice of using plastic tarps for your sweat lodge...a practice that has killed people in the past and recently...and justify it in your mind by convincing yourself that it's "the Indian way"....."using everything available" or whatever way you to explain it. The real sentiment behind that is using everything available FROM NATURE...plastic is unnatural and man-made...they don't go together. It's dangerous and you must, for your safety and others, stop using it. When you or another ends up hurt in some way because you've convinced them that plastic is "the Indian way" because Germany is very rainy...then the blame goes here...not to you and that's how you'll end up hurting Native peoples.
Humble yourself to the fact that you are just a human being, like me and like everyone else. True wisdom is gained over time and involves learning the same thing in many different ways. Some people never figure that out. In my community there are people who are considered "elders" and then there are those just got old and made it without learning anything. Elders are considered so by the entire community, not just because of age, but because the things they say make sense. They are very humble individuals and never give themselves titles in order to impress others and are also very happy and fun to be around. If you've closed your mind to learning things and consider yourself "the teacher" at this very young stage of your life then you'll really miss out on a lifetime of knowledge that could really be used to help people you know and trust.
I'm not your teacher or any teacher so getting together isn't something I'm offering. I've got a full life of family and community that uses my time so if my words make sense to you...that's all I got. If not....I'm not gonna be upset with you for it, but I certainly would feel disappointed for you if you choose not to understand anything that's written by knowlegeable individuals on this board....many much more knowledgeable than myself.
Superdog