i hear it very well,
i hear and feel here fear, ego`s are speaking. and so on. not from all
not one man gave me the right to run ceremonies. the grandfathers gave it to me.
one question? how many of you speaks with the grandfathers?
listen to them. what does they tell you about this?
best wishes to all of you
wacha nabi
At one time early in my life, very early.. I was given vision and told of a promise of a future. That future came to pass, and what I was told was real, but also very false. I had lived my entire life based on that. Seriously, my Life. I stayed alive for it. I lived every day for it. And it was false.
How this left me and everything I've gone through to have come out this side, and be where I am now.. is too long a story to tell here. But I can say without any doubt whatsoever, that it is not enough for what grandfathers or any of any has to say.
I learned the hardest way there is, and I can tell you it doesn't matter what you perceive as being grandfathers, or what it is you perceive they have said.
The only thing that matters is the world you are finding yourself within and what you do there. Not from self.. from what you want it to be, or what you wish to believe..
Belief is as fleeting as life.. It comes and goes with.. and as.. birth and death.
So, what you are believing in regards to who you perceive as grandfathers, and what you perceive of them relaying to you.. is what you believe.. but it doesn't make it truth, and could very well be false.
I have learned in the hardest way, that the vision, or message relayed is best not to be interpreted by the one receiving. The self is in the way there.
To me, to ask what the grandfathers say, is asking me to ask what is the opinions of who knows... and how many... One may say this, another may say that. It still leaves all in the same situation. The decisions of what we do must come from ourselves. It is we who are alive now. Therefore, what we choose is on us, not on ancestors.
You decide on what to do here. It is on you, and only you. People on this board have given you their views, explained what their tradition is in these matters. If you decide to ignore the voices of the traditions you are using.. that is on you, and you alone. To lift it up to say the 'grandfathers' said so, or told you so.. that is not real. There is no ancestor or spirit or whatever that is going to tell you to do this or that. The action of your life, is yours, and yours alone.
Having said this, and pretty much thinking that you will continue in your way, I can only then ask that you please punch a lot of holes in that plastic you are using. Thank you.