TO PLH:
You wrote:
Ok let me see if I understand this correctly. Please correct any misunderstanding I may have. You are white, not NDN.
****A wonderful Maliseet spiritual elder helped me to understand something about myself that I'll pass on to you. I confided in her concerning my difficulty in accepting what happened to me, and what I'm now doing, as I was raised Irish Catholic. She told me that it wasn't the color of my skin that counted, it was what was in my heart, and how I walked on Mother Earth.and Another friend, a Passamaquoddy, said over and over to me: "Just because you're red, doesn't mean you're red", ? until I understood her point_ that just because I'm white doesn't mean I'm not red in my heart. These were very healing experiences for me. There are stories of NDN ancestry in my family. I am currently researching that, but as I have not yet been able to prove it, I would never make any claims about it. However, I have often wondered whether or not what happened to me was the result of NDN genetic memory...I was raised Catholic, and would have expected angels to appear to me, or the Virgin Mother, etc., but it was Bear Spirits who prevented my death, returned me to the body, healed me, and asked me to share certain teachings with others. That's certainly not a Catholic experience, is it?
You refer to a Medicine Wheel, that is a white concept?
****I don't believe I have ever posited that the Medicine Wheel is a white concept, and if I have, shame on me, because of course it's not, and I don't understand it as such. But because of my mythological and depth psychology studies, I was able to recognize the Native American Medicine Wheel as a sacred mandala. To the best of my knowledge, it is the only sacred mandala to have arisen from the cultures of this land, this geography. My culture is largely ignorant of this fact, as well as exhibiting a profound ignorance of the deep, sophistated and complex philosophy of Native American psychology. In addition, there is still a great deal of racist prejudice and insulting stereotyping directed at Native peoples in this country. Part of what I'm trying to accomplish is to counter such ignorance by exploring the Medicine Wheel in terms that white culture can grasp.
Sorry I have to re-word rather than steal a quote from you here: You are the keeper of certain teachings of the Bear Spirit Clan that it "seems" you carried in your genetic memory? How do you "seem" to carry anything in your genetic memory?
****I'm a North woman. I possess very ? few diplomatic skills. I didn't want to assertively state that I AM the keeper of certain teachings of the Bear Spirit Clan that I carried in genetic memory, although I am, and I do, and the trauma of my initiation somehow opened up that incredible genetic capsule and made its content available for me.
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Perhaps you could concentrate on your own imbalance.
****It's a long journey to the Center, isn't it?