In response to Walking Soft's comment:
"So did Scarlet read some books, listen to a few lectures and than begin her cultic teachings?"
I will say this only once, and will not discuss it further. Whether you choose to believe it or not, it happened.
No, I did not "read some books, listen to a few lectures and then begin my 'cultic' teachings."
Here's what actually happened to me:
In 1988 I moved into a new home/studio/art gallery in the little village I live in. A serviceman who was installing a propane furnace left a pipe uncapped. When another serviceman came to light the stove pilot, and turned on the gas, it poured into the space from the uncapped pipe, and the whole place filled with it. Neither of us could smell it because all the piping was new and absorbed the odorant used in the propane to alert people to leaks. He then lit a match.
The concussive force of the explosion that resulted was so violent it blew skylights 40 feet out into the back yard. I was thrown about the room, and horribly burned in the fire that followed the explosion. I had an out-of-body experience during this event. I knew I was dying, and somehow felt very serene about it. I moved towards a light at the end of a cavernous, tunnel-like space.
I was unable to complete my journey, however, because my way was blocked by several large bear spirits, grizzlies. One of them, who later identified himself to me as Standing Bear, asked me to return to "the body", as there was a work his clan, the Bear Spirit Clan, wanted me to do for them. I agreed, and he transmitted to me an enormous amount of what I could only perceive at the time as densely compressed images. He then asked me to look down at the body. As I did so, I felt an enormous compassion for its suffering, and that compassion somehow propelled me back into it.
I got myself out of the fire. The grizzly spirits stayed with me, and are still with me. They facilitiated my physical healing, and began teaching me. I could see them, hear them, smell them.
I was raised Catholic, and had no prior knowledge of Native American ways or of shamanism. I went to a therapist who looked at the paintings I was making of the constant visions the bear spirits were inducing, and was told that they looked shamanic. My response was, "What's that?"
Then I did read a few books. I did research on the subject, and found many examples of shamanic initiation in the literature that mirrored what had happened to me.
I didn't know what to do, because there wasn't anybody in my culture who knew anything about what I was going through.
At around that time, I began to hear a drumbeat that contained an invitation to travel to the Southwest. After two months, I did so, and within a few days, met my teacher.
She guided me through what had up until then been a terrifying experience of spontaneous ecstatic visions and dreams. She taught me how to handle the energies that had come to me, and how to communicate with the five bear spirits who were constantly with me. I will always honor her for being willing to help me. Yes, she was Native American, and she helped me when nobody in my own culture could. For this reason, I have always had a great respect for Native American people, and have hoped to develop some relationships within that culture.
Over the years, the compressed images transmitted to me by Standing Bear have gradually unfolded, and I have gradually integrated their meanings. The work I'm doing now is a way of honoring the committment I made to Standing Bear, when he asked me to share my experience "with all who have the heart to hear."
It seems very few people on this site have the heart to hear, as everything I say is either misinterpreted or twisted to mean something other than what I'm communicating, and thrown back at me in attempts at character assassination.
To those who can hear what I'm saying, I would very much like to reach some understanding with you. I am not your enemy. Nor am I creating a cult.
I am a white woman who experienced a genuine shamanic, not Native American, intiation. I don't know, and may never know, why this happened to me. But I did experience it, and I will honor both my experience and the woman who helped me get through it, whatever others may think of her or of me, and in spite of any difficulties we may have had.
I am working with the teachings I received from Standing Bear and from my physical world teacher, combined with my graduate studies in mythology and depth psychology, to create a psychology of wholeness that honors the feminine, and to contribute to raising earth consciousness in my own culture.
If you can't or won't understand me or my work, there's nothing I can do about that. But I'm going to continue doing it.